Didn't Thought

So many things been bothering me recently. . .
Wanted to open it up to lighten up the load. . .
But when i did open it to someone. . . he doesn't seem to be interested. . . he didn't even let me finish. . .
Thought of opening it up to someone else. . . sadly it seems that there are no someone else. . .
Didn't thought it would hurt so bad. . .
Wanting to open something up. . .
But no one seems to be there to hear u out. . .

Damned Me

been looking up to others all my life. . .
looking at myself like a crap hole. . .
wishing to be saved by those i look up to. . .
but hell, they don't even know who i exist. . .

guess i'm dreamin every single day of my life. . .
hope this dream turns into a reality. . .
or hope that i realize and accept that it will be a constant fantasy. . .

hah! hope i just forget to dream again. . .
and feel so empty. . .
like i how used to be before. . .
as empty as the universe. . .
so vast. . . and no one knows what u are. . .

though i feel like the universe now. . .
no one knows who i am. . .
i hope that someone has. . .
i hope that someone does. . .
i hope that someone will. . .

never thought it will be a sad hell when no one knows. . .
to whom your efforts are. . .
the value of the things you do. . .
mostly. . . they don't know who you are. . .

'no one' deserves to be this sad. ..
damn me. . . i'm a 'no one'. . .

just hope i can trust someone my thoughts to. . my life to. . .
lastly. . . my heart to. .
though it is stone cold or is in a million pieces. . .

damn how i pity myself. . .

logging off. . . M•M